In Search of Beauty, ceativity and cool

Me, my sister, and the nephew now realises how cool it is to hold the Olympic Torch! (Taken with instagram)

Me, my sister, the Olympic Torch and my nephew who isn’t that impressed lol (Taken with instagram)

Lonely but not Alone

I have a wonderful family…

My best friends are the ones I’ve had since school for over 20 years now…

and yet, each day, my heart and soul are lonely…

I don’t know if I’m any different from other human beings in so much that more than anything else, I crave a companion…

I am a loyal, caring, genuine and selfless person that would do anything I could for the people that I know…

The people that I know, trust, or class as friends are the ones I constantly ramble away to, because more than anything else, meaningful human contact means so much to me…

I have made many mistakes in life and hit many bumps along the way but I have survived them and I’m still learning…

After me and my now ex-girlfriend, lost a baby last year I am more affraid than ever…

more affraid that I will never know what it’s like to be a father and dad…

scared I will never again know what it’s like to fall in love with someone and have them fall in love with me…

be able to give my heart, soul and everything that I am to someone…

someone that I can cuddle the night away with, ramble away to, have them ramble back at me, have the most lovely comfortable silences, have heated passionate discussions about music, film, art and other interests, and do all the other amazing things that go hand-in-hand with being in a relationship…

know that someone always has my back and I have theirs and, no matter what, we have each other…

the things you give up being single for, becuase that person is worth the sacrifice…

I know I sound like a soppy, sentimental old fool, but guess what…

That’s just me.